I Used To.

I used to be a kid, I used to have dreams

But now I have nightmares and all I hear are screams

From the inside; my soul, crying out for help

Longing for the joyous things it once felt.

I used to see the sun, I used to feel it's heat

But now I feel the cold raindrops of defeat.

Washing away my euphoric memories

And unveiling a grave for which to bury me.

I used to have a heart before I traded it for a diamond.

I'm not the best person to talk to or confide in

But it does protect me from the hate the world throws.

I refuse to succumb, I refuse to wear its clothes

I refuse to be another face in the crowd

I refuse to be timid and let myself be cowed.

I used to give a fuck, now I give a fuck less

About the things that use to hamper my road to success.

I no longer dwell on those things, it's pointless to. 

I can't worry about the past and what I've been put through.

I'm focused on the future and what tomorrow's promised,

Finding my way out of this bleak abyss.

The world and it's people are coaxing me to quit

But my dreams are far too bright to be eclipsed.

I won't falter, success is my Siamese twin.

Nice guys finish last; I want to win.