To always be yourself and never try and fake it.
Your choices reflect your future and the resulting action
Will either lead you to a better place or bring you pain from day one.
I shrugged it off as I don’t believe in destiny
No one controls my life; I decide what’s best for me.
Little did I know the words the child spoke
Would haunt me forever with the life that I’d tote.
Asshole, jock, were some of the words I was called
Two hundred pounds, six feet tall.
Your ordinary athlete, varsity team.
I had a lot of nicknames, but you can call me Steve.
Popularity, friends, sounds like the life right?
There was only one problem: I had numerous sleepless nights.
When I didn’t, I had night terrors about the child
Who had haunted me with his words for such a long time.
But one in particular, I saw him in a cell
He said, “Change your ways or you’ll end up in hell.”
I said, “Fuck off kid! You don’t know anything about me!”
He replied, “I know you better than you think, young Steve.”
He disappeared, I awoke, heart racing, breathing heavy.
I looked at my clock; it read a quarter past three.
All I could do now was stare at the wall
Thinking about the day I’d end it all.
If you’re wondering, I didn’t graduate
I screwed around too much.
Partying, drinking, smoking and such.
I had to do something, it was my only escape
From my night terrors, trying to deny my fate.
As I’d watch my friends leave, I then realized
I had nothing, I’d exceeded the amount of tries.
The stress was building up, I couldn't bear it anymore,
I was about to end something I could no longer ignore.
I got up, paced, I'd had enough
It was time to put this behind me, to be free of these handcuffs.
I got dressed and headed for the door,
Passing my parents room, they didn't know the pain I endured.
I stopped for a moment with tears running down my face.
I wish I was a better son and not a disgrace.
I kissed them both on forehead and locked the door behind me
Quietly saying, "I'm sorry I couldn't be what you wanted me to be."
I turned over the engine and drove to the nearest cliff
My body was already becoming cold and stiff
I walked to edge, looked up and said, "I’m done,
You can have my life back, that’s it, you’ve won."
I looked down at the be all, end all,
Leaning forward as I began my fall.
As I descended, a shadowy figure came into view,
It was the silhouette of the child I’d hadn’t a clue.
As I fell, his face became more and more clear
Until I could recognize him from ear to ear.
I wasn’t surprised; this is how it was meant to be.
All along, the child in my dreams was me.
I smiled, closed my eyes and prepared to join the dead.
If only I had listened to what he had said.
